After doing the freewrite I almost feel like I just got out of a therapy session. All of my problems that I am facing were just blurted out on paper. Although there was quite a list of things, they seemed more manageable because they are listed out on paper.
One apparent thing in my freewrite is that I am impatiently awaiting the birth of my new niece. My sister is 39 weeks pregnant (40 weeks on Tuesday Oct. 9th), and we are so excited to greet my niece when she comes. My sister and I are very close and she wants me to be present at the time of the birth. Although I am honored that she would ask and overjoyed to share that beautiful experience with her, I am also full of worry and scared to watch her endure so much pain, (As a mother myself, I know the pain endured with childbearing). So, the wait continues. I'm positive she will be worth the wait!
Also, this week I went to the doctor because I was sure that I have attention deficit disorder (new finding) and I went in for an evaluation. The doctor heard my concerns, but informed me that she feels that I do not have ADD, but in fact am overwhelmed. She referred me to a psychologist and recommended that I quit my job if I could financially afford to do so.
Then there is the existing issue, and that is that I am struggling with getting my homework and readings done. I lack the ability to manage my time in a productive way.
On a positive note, this week my husband and I have signed up and are committing to joining to the local biggest loser competition. This is a great step to bettering our health and lives. Not to mention, getting paid to lose weight!
The freewrite for me was great, and I feel like if I could make the time to do it once a week, it would work as great therapy for me. I am able to get out my feelings that I do not usually bring to surface or address, and bring them out to the forefront.
You put this in a really good way that "Although there was quite a list of things, they seemed more manageable because they are listed out on paper." That's exactly how I felt. It made me realize that I can do what I want in life if I pot my mind to it.I appreciate how much you shared. It makes me feel much better about what I am going through as well. I know you can get through everything!!!
ReplyDeleteCongratulation on your niece and entering the biggest loser competition. It seems like you have a lot of positive, powerful things happening in your life. I think it is also a good sign that you recognized you are feeling different and went to the doctor. I think your body and mind are giving you signals. I think it is great you already know time management will help you. I find it really helpful to take an inventory of all work due for the week on Monday and then schedule time for each assignment.
ReplyDeleteWhat is your sister naming your niece? I think Jodie has some great advise for organizing school assignments. I work on school work every night except Sunday.
ReplyDeleteShe named her Lovella :)
DeleteWow, Natalie, your freewrite sounds like it was definately a good exercise for you. Good luck to your sister and may you rejoice when baby decides to arrive. A therapist is always a good idea if you have access to one. Glad to hear you don't have ADD, just a complicated life. I want to wish you and your husband good luck in trying out for biggest loser, I love that show. One day at a time for your homework, just keep on working at it. I enjoyed your blog, it was very informative.
ReplyDeleteThank you Deidra. The freewrite was a great exercise for me. My husband and I would have won the first week of biggest loser, but they cancelled the competition due to problems within the program hosting.
DeleteHi Natalie, I hope you post pics of baby on your blog. How exciting and what a privelege for your sister to want you to be in the delivery room. I just want you to know that you are amazing, all of our accomplishments thus far in life are really honorable. I am thinking that when we are about 55 we will look back at these years and think what in the heck did we get ourselves into :) You'll probably say "I should have went with the sciences" Take it easy and keep up the good work.
ReplyDeleteLOL! Thanks Leetz, I honestly think you're right about the sciences.
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